Articulation, Memory, and the Art of Consistent Creation

Somedays I am articulate, and somedays I wonder where my vocabulary vanishes. Then I wonder whether it is a universal experience. I can but hypothesize this to be true. And I could go seek scientific articles to get answer to my questions. However, as credible as it sounds to depend upon scientific evidence, do I really need them for something that could be answered by common sense. Or I could seek worldly wisdom in the form of anecdotes from website like Reddit or Quora. Again, do I really need to always rely on these answers from an external world. It is true that finding answers has become easy with the plethora of resources that are available to us, however, I believe, having ready made answers is stunting our practice of thinking. Consumption has overtaken creation. I understand that consumption is one way through which we understand the world, both internal and external. However, it is not as divine as creation. Creation, although piggybacks on what we have consumed, it is further bolstered by our uniqueness. I began this blog by with a comment on ephemeral nature of my memory, more particularly memory of my vocabulary, and I ended up talking about the uniqueness of our creations. How does one reach there?

As I stated the dependent nature of creation on consumption, which I believe is universally accepted truth, as followed by common sense, it is in creation where lies the antidote to the flailing memories. We can foster its growth by use, and use is but a sobriquet for creation. I must thus create, and create consistently. If it is the forgetfulness of words in a speech that's troubling me, I should talk more.

Some other times I wonder, if I can not be articulate at a particular instance, and I defer to think that thought due to it, or out of procrastination or I am just lazy to find the right word to fill that thought, am I sabotaging my own mental growth? If I don't think that thought, I wouldn't know what was to follow after it.

I want to be a better thinker, and that prompts me to keep learning language, to access different styles of writing by reading from diverse content that is available online. To satiate my literary appetite I read The New Yorker and the London Review of Books. I read the former more frequently than the latter, simply because of its ease of reading, and mimetic nature which makes it more relatable. However, on the days I wish to challenge myself, and explore beyond my comfort zone, I open LRB.

The reason I mentioned my reading interests is to tell that I consume a lot. And in fact I am biased towards consuming. And there was a time, when I felt proud of it. But no more. I feel like I am digressing from my duties by being just a consumer. What duties am I talking about? I am talking about the imperative to satiate the creator inside me. And every person has it in them. The nature of expression, however, could vary. In becoming this over consumer, I tend to envy the other creators. But it's not getting me anywhere. I am stuck, I am in a rut. Envy won't get me anywhere, but creation would. So I must turn this envy into inspiration, and act in my best interest. I have long known my style of expression, and it is writing and that's why today I am writing this blog. In as much it is for me, it is also for all those people, who can not get themselves to get into motion to create.

I am proud that I have created this blog today. And today I promise myself that more shall follow. I have not let perfectionism come in my way today. I submitted myself to freewriting.